Do you ever feel completely drained of all energy?
I mean completely. Not just a little run down or stressed, but completely trampled on body, mind and soul? I have felt that way for the last few weeks. Ok, let's be honest....I have been going through and endless cycle of this sort of behavior my entire life.
I have been trying SO hard to help everyone around me that I forgot about taking care of me, myself and I. Why is it that I do this again and again? I think it stems from a deep and aching need to feel loved. As a child given up on and just plain given up so many times, I find that I'm always looking for approval and affirmation from everyone around me. This is the fundamental behavior that I need to change in order to get over this codependent circle in my life.
I am a good person. I know this. I don't need something or someone else to make me feel good about myself. True self esteem and self worth can only come from one place. Within.
Honestly, I don't really know where I'm going with this, but all I can say is FTFF.....but then I think to myself WWJD.
I am tired of being the NICE GIRL.......
I mean completely. Not just a little run down or stressed, but completely trampled on body, mind and soul? I have felt that way for the last few weeks. Ok, let's be honest....I have been going through and endless cycle of this sort of behavior my entire life.
I have been trying SO hard to help everyone around me that I forgot about taking care of me, myself and I. Why is it that I do this again and again? I think it stems from a deep and aching need to feel loved. As a child given up on and just plain given up so many times, I find that I'm always looking for approval and affirmation from everyone around me. This is the fundamental behavior that I need to change in order to get over this codependent circle in my life.
I am a good person. I know this. I don't need something or someone else to make me feel good about myself. True self esteem and self worth can only come from one place. Within.
Honestly, I don't really know where I'm going with this, but all I can say is FTFF.....but then I think to myself WWJD.
I am tired of being the NICE GIRL.......
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